Finding Life in the Cosmos

The stars are a daily reminder that our intentions are meant to soar above Earthly understandings of the Cosmos.

In uniting with the Cosmos, we unite with our souls and that of our brothers and sisters who set sail, tread and fly through the Earth’s atmosphere in search of Life and what it has to offer us.
Placed inside a womb like a seed in soil we are but a seed in the Universe, seeking ways to nourish our roots so that we may breakthrough the soil and into sun, branching out and swaying to the music hummed by the winds that move us closer to where we belong — one with Nature and the Universe.

Dancing to the tune of the Cosmos, we choose to see, hear and do what we feel as taught from our childhood - in institutions from school to church and the ideal representation of Home. Slowly, we detach from the cosmos, the star within us dims in the darkness, forgetting that the same carbon nitrogen and oxygen within us is exactly what need to tap into — so that we can come to light.

I never understood why people kept saying You need the darkness to shine, until one day darkness swept over me like a high tide on a monsoon night — clashing against the shores of my heart, destroying everything it touched, what I had built seemed to no longer stand nor exist, in the tide now swept away were good days. Days I thought I had lived my best self.

So, I dove into the Ocean with the expectation that it too will take me away — never to see a shore- but it did worse.

I let go to be swept away, yet I floated in a sea of nothingness and in it, I lost my inhibitions — I lost the idea of my self. Days and months passed — still floating. I was caught to a current I couldn’t swim out of, to stay alive, I did nothing. In this infinite pool of water that was meant to suffocate me to death — as I had initially imagined I had always stayed afloat.
I would kick and fill my clothes with stones to drown my voice, my body — my self.

Yet like the phenomenon in the Dead Sea, I stayed afloat in the unknown waters of complete nothingness — and as I continued to float into the night sky, I surrendered. The water around me illuminated, diminishing the darkness, as I lay under twinkling eyes and in the embrace of Nature: I was in good company.

The Universe despite all its Greatness was and is watching over the stardust that had been put together to make me, and in acknowledging this I began to find myself beyond that idea of who “I” was.